2009

So the last part of my pregnancy sucked but luckily I made it through. The result is a beautiful baby girl. Things are still a little crazy, but we are making it. Here is a cute picture of sissies on Christmas Eve in their matching jammies.

Nesting

Every time I think of nesting, I picture my cat Wink kneading my pink fuzzy blanket. I feel like I want to just settle in like a cat. But, then I look at this house and all of the crap that has to be done before Anna gets here and it makes me want to pull my hair out. It is coming along, very slowly, but surely. Besides getting the house in order, I have to get a new crib because Evie's was recalled. I have to get clothes and the changing table back from people they were lent to and I need to start my cloth diaper stash. Bluh...

Evie is fully potty trained and no longer takes a pacifier. Monday is her first dentist appointment and SHE informed us that she wanted to go. So, I made the appointment at the dentist with the Jungle Room that she liked on the internet. We are over the moon about how well she is doing. We did the reward system for every time she went but now she gets only one treat a day as long as she doesn't have any accidents. She hasn't had an accident in almost a week and thats just because she was playing in our closet while we were doing laundry and couldn't get the door open fast enough. We are probably going to take her to see the Backyardigans in about a month for doing so well and something special for just her before Anna gets here. The more I look forward to meeting Anna, the more I fall in love with Evie. She & I compared her feet to the footprints of when she was first born in her baby book. She said "I growed and growed mommy!" My baby girl is becoming such a big girl. I pulled out my old Grape iMac yesterday and found some toddler games and activities for her and she is really digging it.

Nothing is really going on around here... I am bored and lonely mostly but trying to keep busy with what little energy I have. My vag is still hurting like a sum' bitch, but I can't complain too much cuz I am having a textbook pregnancy and its zooming by. Now, if Matt could just get this job with TDOT, we will be set!

Growing Up

Growing Up
I could never fully convey in this blog how proud I am of my daughter. She has been potty training this week and doing so well. I cannot get over how fast she is growing up. It is a little sad, but I can't help but beam. She had given up the pacifier a few months ago, but when school let out, her schedule was interrupted and we gave it back to her. This week has been potty training AND no pacifier. She hasn't asked for her paci and I believe that we won't have to deal with it any longer.

She is an amazing girl, will be an amazing big sister and I know she will be an amazing woman. I look forward to see the girl she grows up to be.

Past Due

So I suppose and update is in order...

We had Tetsuo put down a few weeks ago. I miss her so much and think of her through out the day. We had her cremated and her urn

Past Due

So I suppose an update is in order...

We had Tetsuo put down a few weeks ago. I miss her so much and think of her through out the day. We had her cremated and her urn sits on a high shelf with a statue of an angel hugging a cat next too it. It hurts less & less everyday, but I am still so sad that she got cancer and there was NOTHING I could do for her. I just tried to make her last weeks comfortable and let her know she was truly loved.

So, June 26th came and went and we are having another girl. We are relieved that we don't have to change the room to accomodate a girl and boy. We have so much girl stuff it is rediculous. I have already made nesting lists and have so much on my mind of what we need to do. I think this is keeping my mind off of thinking of Tetsuo too much.

Babies...

We are anxiously awaiting June 26th. That is the day we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. Hell, I am ready to have this kid already. All I do is sleep, pee, eat & fart. I have been having Braxton Hicks contractions all day and its gotten to be pretty damn annoying. Its nothing serious. I just got a little dehydrated.

I haven't been sleeping well so last night I took 2 Tylenol PM and I could barely rise from the dead this morning. I think I will just take one tonight.

My MIL left today after a nice looooong visit. It was great having her here but I like having my house back and the peace and quiet. Evie gets a little whacky when her grandparents are around so its good to have her back in somewhat of a routine.

We are facing a tough decision soon because my cat Tetsuo's cancer, though we had the mass removed from her leg, it has come back rapidly and her health is starting to decline. I think we could make her comfortable until it was time for her to go, but the lumps are rupturing and I don't know how to deal with open wounds especially with a toddler and a baby soon to be here. I don't want to think about this, but I know I have to and its tearing me up. I just held her last night and cried my eyes out. She was my very first cat and has been through some tough shit wit me through the years, but she stood by me no matter what and I don't know what I would do without her.

Remembering when...

I am getting excited about the little things again.