Christmas

I have all my shopping done. We don't ever have a lot of money to spend for presents but we manage and make the most of it. I know we have a lot more than many people, so in that aspect, I am very thankful. This holiday seemed to be going well, though there has been a sad veil over the family. My grandmother has been ill for a very long time. My mom has seen for a while that my grandmother is near death. She has put up a really good fight but she now realizes that its time to let go. She is full of toxins, her gallbladder needs to be removed, she has Ecoli, a broken foot, 2 broken ribs, a torn rotator cuff, and is in total renal failure. Its hard to believe that she has made it this far. Her doctor said she needed to have her gallbladder removed but she refused the surgery and said, she just wants to go home. My mother just called me crying because this means that she is finally ready to rest and see my grandaddy in heaven. I know it sounds silly and cliché, but she as been so sick for so long that she is just too tired and is ready to go be with him. My mother has taken care of her for so long and my mom needs some rest as well. She has devoted her life to taking care of her mother and has put everything on hold. It may sound a little selfish, but my mom deserves to get her life back before I am taking care of her as she did her mother. My mom needs some rest. So this Christmas, we may be burying my granny. She may make it through Christmas but wont last much longer after that. So now, what was supposed to be a fun and cheerful Christmas will be a time of sadness, though we will celebrate that life she had and the times we spent with her... as crazy at it has been; we can look back and laugh now.